Well, it's been awhile. Okay, here it is. Yes, I'm single. Yes, I'm happy. Yes, I'm taking care of myself and my kids. So now that that's out of the way, here's my life in a nutshell. My marriage was always hard and toxic. We tried to make things work and we just couldn't make each other happy. I lost myself in the course of our relationship and spent 11 years trying to be a person I wasn't. Ultimately, that's what made my marriage fall apart. He fell in love with a person, and I changed who that person was based upon what I thought I was "supposed" to be. That led him to look for more. We were both at fault and unfortunately our kids are now placed in a very unfortunate circumstance.
The good news is that I am finally happy! I've focused on getting healthy and happy and there is so much more to life than I ever realized. My kids are happy. W loves it when we laugh and play together. He's always commenting on how great it is to see me laughing. I never realized how rare that was until I started making myself happy.
I'm also looking for a more permanent job since I'll be losing my benefits and am quickly realizing my pay is not enough to support my children and I don't want to be reliant on someone else. I deserve more than I've had in the past 10 years and it's time for me to put myself first. Unfortunately though, many employers are hesitant to hire someone that has moved so many times and has not held a job for more than 2 years at a time. Hopefully I don't suffer the rest of my life for giving up my future for a marriage that didn't work. I'm just waiting on someone to take a chance on me and give me an opportunity to show what I'm made of. I've been applying for jobs all over the northwest. It should be interesting to see where I end up. The rejection letters are starting to get old.
Anyways, just thought this would be easier than explaining to everyone what is happening. I'm going to try to update this more often as things in my life progress. I'm always looking for support and love! Love you all!!!
